Friday, February 28, 1997

Me a bitch? No.... well ok...

02/28/97 ‑ OK, well I don't feel like such a bitch any longer... however, I'm still not bleeding, just getting that horrible bloating feeling, and I did have to eat 2 scoops of strawberry cheesecake ice‑cream late last night, before bed... so maybe I just feel like I'm in a somewhat nicer mood....

Lolita's hard drive just crashed ‑ it's a long story... and to make it very short..... she was carrying her computer to her car, and I decided to at the same time slap her in the face for some flippant remark that she had the audacity to make to me, well when my hand hit her face, she was standing in the doorway, and she swung her computer straight into the wall, so the upshot of it is, everything on her damn hard drive is now lost.... including her journal.... She's going to be wide awake all weekend long, re‑typing it. So hopefully next weekend I should finally be able to post her Xmas adventures with Ms Chanelle ( a really hot transsexual )... Once she gets it done, she's also going to be keeping a weekly sex journal!!

Thursday, February 27, 1997

Don't fuck off this Mistress....

02/27/97 ‑ I just want to clear up a couple of points for some of you out there.

1) Don't ever send me any e‑mail telling me I was wrong because I took the idiot below to task, who do you think you are, to question anything that I do? Let alone dare to tell me that I can't print or say what I damn well please on MY site. Perhaps there are other sites out there instead of mine that you are better suited to. Find them, and don't ever e‑mail me ever again, both of you know who you are, and take it from me, your e‑mail's will go straight into the trash. I will not put up with behaviour like that from my own slaves, let alone a pair of men that I don't even know. Get a life & steer well clear of mine.

2) I am extremely discreet when it comes to my clients, but time wasters, I have no patience for. I let it go the first time that this person did it, because I realize there are times when something's do come up.. i.e his so called flu. He had at least 3 weeks to think about this, and nobody made him schedule a session with Ms Nichole in the first place. We don't write to you, unless you write to us first. So if you don't have the balls to keep an appt, call us and tell us.

3) If you're not a submissive person, i.e if you're a switch, or a dominant man, don't write us, and don't cruise this site, it's only for submissive males & females & those in between. Definitely do not call me up on a Saturday night and demand that I see you, and then name drop senators & congressmen.. I could care less if you're Prince Philip, I don't want to play with you, and that's my choice. You hassling me, and calling me is not right, nor acceptable. And, if you can't follow the proper procedures that I've laid out for setting up an appointment to begin with, then I WON'T see you. UNDERSTOOD? Your name has also been blacklisted Dr.

4) I expect that when you call me up on the phone and leave me a message, that it's just as discreet & decent as the one you would expect back from me. Don't call me whining, or panting on the phone, leaving me a message to the tune of "Oh Mistress, Goddess, I'm sitting here on my knees just waiting for a call from you, call me back quickly ‑ within 15 minutes" I don't know you, I don't want to hear that ‑ you can leave a normal message that you would leave anywhere else, and do not ever demand that I call you back within 15 minutes. I sometimes don't check my phone messages for days at a time. I totally understand that the little wifey pooh may have gone grocery shopping or is doing the June Cleaver things that these women normally do, but ridiculous time constraints simply do not work for us. If this is something that you have to hide from your wife, and I understand that a lot of you do, there are many little things that you can do, that will discreetly keep it from her. Get a $10/month voice mail ‑ that way I can call you back, and leave a message telling you when I'm generally around the phone, or an alternate way to get in touch. It doesn't ring at your house, and you can call to pick up the messages anytime, from anywhere. You're also not near cardiac arrest every time your home phone rings, hoping that I paid attention to your message to not call after 4pm.... Put a password for Christ sake on your e‑mail account, especially those of you who use AOL. Your mail is stored on your computer (file manager) in the out box till you delete it, or once a week. Your wife can easily log on, and read old outgoing, or incoming mail, without you having the slightest clue that she did. Disable the option to keep old mail on it.
Now, it just so happens that I got a great article sent to me from Bobbi Swan of Our Way Magazine, that Mistress Marie put together and that they both thought would go great with this particular topic. Her sentiments are mine exactly, so pay close attention to this. And, in case you're wondering, Yes I am PMSing.

Rejection by Mistress

Many of you that have read Mistress Marie's columns in recent issues and recognized her as being a splendid writer as well most skilled in Her working with crossdressers. When Patricia stimulated me as Big Sister to discuss problems associated with the "vacuum" that may occur with a submissive becoming so completely subject to his Mistress that his world becomes to crumble if control by Her is severed or cut off. This may occur if the Mistress becomes preoccupied with others, business or personal ‑‑ or off on a trip. It may however, be that the Mistress has lost interest with Her slave. I raised this issue at a delightful Valentine's Day luncheon with Mistress Marie and asked for Her views. As usual, She responded with great zeal. So much, that I was asked to perhaps preface ‑‑ or follow Her discourse with a softening to remind our readers that She is a most gracious, friendly and caring person. Ms. Marie felt Her remarks might make Her to be a mean, stern, old witch. I was well prepared for this and as I received the final draft I found this heading!!

*** Bobbi:On second thought, leave it the way it is. I'm getting tired of being subservient to my submissives..***

So read on and enjoy, better yet, listen carefully my girls and take heed how to better serve your Mistress and receive the attention you yearn for!!!!

Attracting, Pleasing, Serving and Keeping The Attention of a Mistress

Your big sister, Ms. Bobbi, asked me to give some input into an experience several of her little sisters have mentioned: That once you are fascinated by, addicted to, or totally wrapped up in your Mistress, She loses interest, suspends Her attention, or may even actively repulse your services. I laughed because, while this is not a frequent occurrence with me (my screening process is usually strenuous), it is one I have been on the other side of often enough to truly identify with, and sympathize with, the Mistress. Ask an honest question and you get an honest answer. However, you may not like that honest answer. My responses are more suitable to those who have lost or antagonized a professional mistress, but bear considering for any dominant‑submissive relationship. Mistresses, professional or not, end or discourage relationships for the same reasons anyone does: the relationship has become unpleasant, a chore, one‑sided, or an outright nuisance. If She is a good mistress, it is your responsibility to make Her want you. The following describe people I will not see:

You may be dominant when I decide to let You be, Mistress!

First, let's look at a dominant female‑submissive male relationship. If the dominant female considers Herself a life‑style Mistress, She can presumably bear some dissension in the ranks, but not much. Your image of Her is probably one of a loving, demanding czar. If She acts like a czar, and cuts you loose when you don't listen, behave, or follow Her rules, you have only yourself to blame.

See how submissive I can sometimes be!

You think it's perfectly amazing what you are willing to do for your Mistress. Especially if She sees many submissives, you haven't the first clue what the others are willing to do for Her. You may be low girl on the totem pole, bunky. Without a doubt, She finds it tiresome to continually convince you to engage in activities that others participate in willingly and eagerly. She does not want to remind you to give Her the respect She deserves. She doesn't want to spend time repeating anything at all.

Your time is my time, Mistress!

Do you call your Mistress too frequently? (Frequently being Her definition, not yours.) Some Mistresses think once a week is too much. I receive an average of 65 phone calls a day, even though I spend hours on the phone in between. I will be greatly antagonized if you call every day, or worse still, several times a day, to say nothing, or to have me entertain you.

Are you respectful of Her hours? I insist that no one calls me before 11 AM. My phone rings around the clock. My only solution is to turn it off regularly, and I resent this necessity. My stated preference for starting appointments is between 11 AM and 8 PM, and I am regularly nagged into playing earlier or later. I expect a minimum of 24 hours notice before play. Ask me how much I love it when the phone rings and someone says, "May I come over now?"

Also see Case 2: Timeliness, below. Do you bear in mind that your Mistress may have a life? Again, it is often necessary for me to turn off my phone. (I am playing, sleeping, or entertaining vanilla guests. You do leave blatant messages; I never do, nor would most of you want me to.) If you call while the phone is off, or I am out, and call 10 minutes later, and 15 minutes later, I will get rid of you. Your messages are often pseudo‑dominant, rude, or whiny. ("Mistress, if You're there, pick up! " "Mistress, I'll call You back in 5 minutes, will You please pick up?!" " Mistress, why are You mad at me?") . Believe it or not, and no one who sees me seems to believe it, I am infrequently just not in the mood to discuss your fantasies. You get an occasional break from work, I don't.

Actually, when you are insistent that I drop everything and respond to you now, you do make my hobby, my avocation, my joy, seem like work to me. Then I drop you.

Do you practice common courtesy? Do you take the 10 seconds to ask, on the phone, "Did I reach you at a bad time, Mistress?" before launching into your monologue? Maybe my best friend, and her children, are at my elbow. (Don't ask why I would pick up the phone, then, that labels you as completely hopeless.) Maybe I am watching a movie, eating dinner, or on my way out. I do not exist for the sole purpose of being at your beck and call. Practice common courtesy. Do you appreciate the time you are given, or do you come to expect it? I usually make 2‑hour appointments. If I am enjoying myself with the submissive male in question, I will keep him, and continue playing. Recently, I have been ill with bronchial flu. One previous "favorite" made an appointment with me shortly after. I kept him 4 hours. He called the next day to complain that I had "rushed" him out, that he felt we spent "too much time" on one activity. I kept him twice as long as he should have expected, and he had no regard whatsoever either for the fact that I was recuperating, or that the session in question was very expensive for me.

Pay up Mistress, what do you mean, Tribute?
Read this whether or not you are interested in a professional Mistress!

You don't insult me if you question or complain about my fee. On the contrary, I usually am amused, and label you a novice, a user, a sponge, an egotist, non‑submissive, cheap, and as someone who has difficulty maintaining any relationship, unless the woman pays both your ways. Let's see: I provide the location, the refreshments, the toys, the expendables (condoms, lube, gloves, film). Usually I provide the wardrobe, fresh stockings and shoes. You shower here (soap, shampoo, and lotions‑often you demand special brands). I am responsible for the ambiance, (candles, mood‑music, scent), for setting the scene and cleaning up and laundering afterwards. My phone is a major expense. (One "submissive" male out of state became very peeved when I suggested he send a tribute to cover his wanting me to call him regularly.) I shop for my submissives, and frequently gift them with items they need or want. I constantly renew my own wardrobe, toys, and research materials. And I am a lifestyle, full‑time dominatrix. My complete needs must be satisfied by the people I keep myself available for 24 hours a day.

Some time ago, I performed a rather extensive analysis of how much it costs me to see someone. Disregarding rent, utilities and similar "normal living expenses", the answer then was $50. The cost has certainly gone up. So I do laugh when angry "submissives" with low self esteem insist that if I were "really" dominant, if I "really" enjoyed what I do, I would see them for "free". (I should probably treat them to a nice dinner, too, right?)

So, driving in a point: If you are a financial drain on me, I have no use for you whatsoever. I am considerate. If you are not, it is highly unlikely that you are, on the other hand, fun to play with or to be around. Balancing the financial scales is always intelligent.

I am Janie One‑Note, Mistress, and I pick the topic!

When asked why I won't see men under the age of 35, my response is that eventually we must have a conversation, and I can't talk to them. A balanced conversation is usually not a crossdresser's strong point. If you call me, you are probably dressed, and you want to talk about it‑‑about shopping for clothes, trying on clothes, additions to your wardrobe, what you are wearing, where you might find an article, or that you looked for or purchased an item I instructed you to obtain. If we talk about play, you whine that you want me to throw a party, invite my girlfriends, and have you serve. (I don't really need to be reminded of this, actually, ever. I know what you want, that's why I'm good. If I choose to satisfy this desire, it will be on my time table, not yours.) Should I change the subject, even momentarily, off of crossdressing, (I read a good book, saw a good movie, won the lottery, died yesterday), some of you will wait, palpably impatiently, and change the subject back to dressing at the first opportunity, no matter how tenuous the bridge.

I can't talk about anything at all to the complete exclusion of everything else. It gets boring, no matter how much you enjoy the topic. People who cannot chat about a variety of daily events have no relationship, at least not with me.

I'm really submissive, Mistress, I'm just not obedient!

If you are not positively responsive to 98 percent of my orders, usually without question, you won't be around long.

Case 1: Following orders. You call very frequently. In the last call, I said, "I want you to go out and purchase red panties, and be wearing them the next time you call me." The next day, you call, and when prompted (and why did I have to prompt you, anyway?) say you didn't get them, because... I don't need or want to hear the reason. The only pertinent information here is that you did not do what you were told to do. And you didn't have the common sense to put on the purple panties you already own before you called, or to wait to call until you had accomplished what you were told to accomplish.

Case 2: Self‑determination. I blindfold you, and am doing something so interesting that you remove the blindfold yourself while I am occupied, because you "want to see". Actually, this specific example has happened to me only once. I sent him home immediately.

Case 3: Call waiting. You get one chance at messing this one up; I announce my policy after that. My time is valuable, and if your interest is speaking with me until someone better comes along, I don't need you. If you are expecting an important call, then don't call me to pass the time while you're waiting for it. I don't play second string. Call waiting is extremely rude for any reason other than receiving emergency calls from stranded children. Put me on hold and you will never speak to me again.

Case 4: Listening. One of my pet peeves is the improper use of the verbs can and may. "Can I?" means Am I able to? "May I?" means Am I permitted to? Can I remove this blindfold? and May I remove this blindfold? are two entirely different questions. I don't like explaining simple rules once, and I certainly don't like explaining them ten times a session. (No imperative sentences. Use Please and Thank You and Yes, Mistress. Don't leave my toilet seat up‑especially if you're dressed. Don't do anything without asking, properly, for permission.) If what I like is important to you, then you will listen. And if you don't listen, I will drop you.

I know You're discreet Mistress, but You can tell me!

I have difficulty finding a submissive male to carry on a continuing, close relationship with for one of two reasons:

1) Half are threatened by, jealous of, or uncomfortable with the fact that I will continue to play with other submissive males.

2) Half are extremely pruriently interested in my activities with other submissive males. Both of these behaviors are frequently exhibited by most submissive males I do see. I understand that I maintain a lifestyle about which you are curious. However, I don't ask to see your W‑2, and you shouldn't ask me how many men I see on any given week. The response will be "None of your business." If you have any class at all, at least by that point you understand that you have asked for very personal financial information. (Remember the movie "Giant", where Rock Hudson thought it was uncouth to state the number of acres in his ranch?) You are curious about other people's tolerances. My personal opinion is that, if you can take 3 seconds of hot wax, and you manage 4, you have done better than your best for me. To me, this is exactly as good as someone who can take an hour of hot wax, and manages an hour and 5 minutes. Neither of you is better. You are not in competition with each other. Maybe you take more weights, or have prettier legs. You are in competition only with yourself. If I mention that Susie‑Q can do whatever, I am not announcing it as a standard, as a goal, or as anything at all but a curiosity.

I am by nature cautious, discreet, and reticent. I love what I do, and will discuss activities without particulars. If I find you responding jealously, or asking for intimate names and details, I will be repulsed. If you put yourself in competition with others' "achievements", I will be alarmed. If you treat me as if I were your own personal 1‑900 experience, I will be insulted. Regardless of how much fun you are, I will drop you.

Change Yourself to suit me, Mistress!

It is, after all, possible that your Mistress realizes your interests do not coincide. I love crossdressers. I also love administering pain. I can occasionally tolerate a dresser who desires stroking only, but I am neither going to allow that submissive to dictate to me, nor force that submissive into activities he will certainly not enjoy. I will gently suggest he keep looking.

Forgive my odor, Mistress, may we proceed?

If you haven't found yourself in any of the above, we will consider the elementary necessities. There used to be a mouthwash commercial, "Even your best friend won't tell you". Mistresses are, after all, human beings. Some of your bad behaviors are so basic, it seems useless to correct you for them. If you don't know better by now, you'll never learn.

Case 1: Cleanliness. Would you go to your doctor for a thorough exam without bathing, shampooing, putting on fresh clothes? Does your doctor inspect you as thoroughly as your Mistress does? Even those who exhibit immaculate hygiene can be offensive, particularly with odors. I personally hate greasy or sticky hair. If your Mistress commonly uses a dildo on you, She expects and appreciates cleanliness. She does not relish a bag of clothes you have used strenuously before bringing them to see Her. If it is necessary for me to be more graphic on this topic, your hygiene is likely the reason She lost interest.

Case 2: Timeliness. If you make an appointment to see me, and can't make it, chances are good that I can substitute for you, given adequate notice. It never ceases to amaze me that submissive males are surprised when I raise their fee after they stand me up. (Most of my friends will not make an appointment with them again if they do so.) If they cancel twice on short notice, I require their fee be delivered at least 24 hours in advance of our play. Some submissives arrive hours late, some very early. Any additional cancellation, stand up, or costly or inconvenient behavior results in my refusing to see them or to talk to them again. I am lenient. They are thoughtless, rude, and costly.

Case 3: Personality. Face it, precious, you may be an oaf. I am, personally, non‑judgmental. I don't appreciate bigotry in those around me. Crossdressers may not lambaste foot fetishists anymore than any one at all is allowed to criticize crossdressers. I don't want to hear racial, religious, or any other intolerance or slurs. I don't appreciate pomposity in any form, particularly not from a submissive male.

Case 4: Losers. After all, who would want you around? If you have no friends, there's probably a reason, but you'll never recognize yourself in this list: Whiners, Hypochondriacs, Doom and Gloomers Braggarts, Habitual Liars, The Terminally Coy or Self‑Important Drug Users/Addicts/Alcoholics The Secretive‑You get my name, home address, and phone number. I get a pseudonym. Petty Thieves‑I know what's missing when you leave; I know you intentionally short‑changed me; I know you did not accidentally pack my items with yours. Ask, if you want a souvenir. Ask beforehand if you are "a little short today".

If all else fails, may I punt, Mistress?

If you have been let loose by a particular Mistress, She is the best source for the reason behind Her action. Why not ask? My guess is, She'll tell you.

In summary, there are many reasons a Mistress may choose to put distance into, or lose interest in, a relationship. Most involve a major lack of consideration on the submissive's part. Mistresses are not usually reticent about their desires. As a submissive, it is your responsibility to listen, then change, adapt, accommodate, or move on.

A personal note: I missed writing for you girls last month. The flu lasted 5 weeks, and is mercifully, history. Thankfully, it held off hitting me till after my birthday. Ms. Bobbi arranged a wonderful birthday lunch. Take your vitamins, get your rest, and stay healthy!

Love to You All,

Ms. Marie

Bless you Ms. Marie for another fine article ‑‑ and one that we should all take heed. That's me too!!! ‑‑ for one of the things I abhor most is leaving the toilet seat up. And yes, I did that when I was fussing about the day I took Her to the birthday lunch. I have been told how I will pay for that mishap!!! Ms. Bobbi

I will second that, please take careful note of all of these points, because any good Mistress will feel exactly the same way. You are here to serve us, not waste our time, cost us money, or cater to you. I couldn't have said this much better myself. I don't think that you understand how much time and effort we put into each of you, sometimes there's just no more left to give. This was the case with Brandon.

Our e‑mail addresses are still not working as Michael (the ex‑provider) is dicking us around big time. It really pisses me off, especially as he's paid up through till the 10th of March, and should still be providing me with service. I wish I knew a lawyer who could send him a threatening letter!! And one to my dealership, for my piece of crap car, that has leaked constantly since I bought it, and that has had a mountain of problems since I drove it out of the showroom. Don't ever buy a Camero. Take it from me,. please they are pieces of junk!

By the way, We're not taking any appts on March 7th after 6pm, as we're going to see Howard Stern's Movie, Private Parts!!

God I'm in a great mood am I not? I think I'm going to go take a nice long hot shower, and chill out for about half an hour... then perhaps if I feel like it, I'll add some new stories for you all to read & salivatate over!!

OK, well I've somewhat chilled out, thank god my next appt is with a real masochist, who just love's having the absolute shit beat out of him, this pain slut has no limits what‑so‑ever as I'm constantly breaking them!!! He has it marked in his calendar when my period should be starting, and has a long standing appt booked with me. I hope I'm only grumpy for another day or so, and then I'll start bleeding profusely, then it'll be all over!! Thank heavens for that!!

Wednesday, February 26, 1997

Fucking idiot!

02/26/97 ‑Oh and something that I totally forgot to mention this past Saturday.... That really PISSES US OFF ‑‑‑ DO NOT EVER book an appointment with one of my associates, or myself, and not show up, or call to cancel. This is rudeness at it's fullest, and we don't appreciate having our time wasted. However, Brandon Sesler thought that it would be OK to not once, but twice stand Ms Nichole up. Brandon was Ms Nichole's Saturday appt, who called in the morning at her specified time, for directions.. whatever for, I'm not sure, as he obviously had no intention at that point of showing up anyway. The previous week had called at the last minute to say he had the flu... OK we can understand that this is flu season, and sometimes things just come up. But at least give the Mistress a courtesy call, and re‑schedule for another time. To not just show up when you're expected, is an extremely rude thing to do. We spend a lot of time getting dressed and ready for you, not to mention the work that goes into setting up the dungeons, just with candles etc., that we don't expect to be left sitting down there waiting for some IDIOT or ASSHOLE that has no intention of ever showing up!! We are no different than anyone else you schedule time to be with... If I book an appt with my DR, and I just suddenly decide that I can't be bothered to go, I get a bill in the mail, for that time regardless of whether I show up or not.

Now for those of you reading this who may have done this before in the past ‑ this is why most professional dommes will not give you the time of day, until you're actually sitting in front of us, and we know that you're totally serious about learning from us, or being taught a whole new lifestyle game. Because of assholes like Brandon Sesler everyone gets a bad rap. Things like no‑shows or last minute cancellations do not happen very often for us, because we like to be very thorough in our e‑mails with you, and in making sure that this is something that you are totally serious about. Obviously Brandon Sesler was one who slipped through the cracks.

Anyhow I'm not going to waste anymore space on this particular idiot.

My new little submissive slut/whore is coming again this Saturday night, to have fun with Ms Ashleigh, Lolita, and myself. Charles is such a little cock‑sucker, and Lolita does have a very nice 9" dick. Perhaps we'll make them do all sorts of nasty little things for our amusement. I should pick up some more blank video tapes and record them, then you can all see me teach Charles how to worship a dildo & watch Lolita get all dressed up in her little slutty red stockings, and put on her crotchless panties, and garter belt, then her bra & little mini dress. I'll do her wig & make‑up, and she can don her 5 " heels, and put on a little fashion parade show for us all..... I think Ms Ashleigh also wants to have them both on their hands and knees in front of me, while she spanks their naughty naked buttocks!! Or perhaps while they're on their knees, give them that little bit of something extra!! That reminds me, I'd better make sure I have some new batteries for our vibrators....

Monday, February 24, 1997


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Thursday, February 20, 1997

No Anal sex in MD???

02/20/97 ‑ There's a lot of laws that I think people need to be aware of ‑‑ for instance in the state of MD did you know that anal sex was a felony and punishable with up to 10 years in prison, and or $1,000 fines?

Many thanks to:‑ Alan, for his HUGE belated Valentines card, his velvet material (just what I needed!!) and his chocolates (which I could do without!!). They are very much appreciated!!

I'd also like to thank Jeff who has been helping me with my shipping problem. I've finally got the logistics all worked out... For legal reasons, It's going to be going via FedEx, in special containers, with screw top lids, and packed in dry ice. It'll be double ziplock bagged, and will be shipped overnight.

I also can't wait to start postal training slaves, I've been busy putting together ideas for audio and video training, and for cross‑dressers‑ I've had many, many exciting thoughts about how to go about their training & transformation process. I'll tell you more about it later!!

Tuesday, February 18, 1997

Sadistic? Me?

02/18/97 ‑ Jeez, what a busy weekend and day I've had. I haven't sat down for more than 5 minutes today ‑ you know all those sales were going on!!
Anyhow it's extremely early in the morning, and I figured I'd get started on answering some questions that have been coming up repeatedly.. For those of you who are interested in postal training (no matter what your fetish is) it will be customized for you by the Mistress that you think you'd like to train under. It's going to be fully explained in the application material, that we send out to you, but for those of you who just have to know... there will be up to four lessons a month... (depending on how quick you get yourself to the mailbox). The training sessions will have audio tapes, video tapes, written material, and tasks for you to perform. It's taken me a very long time to put this stuff together, but every audio and video tape will be totally different/unique (in it's own little way!!) just like us!! I hope that answers the questions on that issue.

Second issue.... For all of you who have or are going to offer us your help in the woodworking, metalworking, or handyman departments, I'm delegating all of this to Mistress Nichole... you'll be under her command, and you'll follow her orders. She knows what it is we're looking for, and she'll be able to explain it to you. Please direct further inquiries on this matter to her. For those of you who have e‑mailed me, and we've actually had a chance to chat on the phone, and go into stuff in much more detail... I look forward to getting the plans etc., from you, and I will continue to work with you on it. Help in this department is very much needed always!!

Third issue, I want to sincerely thank Alan, for coming by on Saturday and paving my garden (making a walk‑way) while I was in training sessions, and for bringing me a razor strap that he hunted high and low to find. I'm truly thankful & grateful to you. Your reward ‑ A dinner date, and then you get to shampoo, and condition my hair.... and give it those 100 strokes with the brush, that I know you so want to do.... a head massage wouldn't be out of line at this point either!!! Call me!

I also want to thank Lolita, our soon to be live‑in sissy maid, for putting up with all of my shit these past few weeks, and for taking such good care of me & the girls, and for helping out as much as you do. I know sometimes I 'forget' or 'can't be bothered' to tell you, but I appreciate it. However don't let that go to your head, and this weekend when I see you, you'd better be well rested because my closets and dressers in my bedroom, are going to get organized, come hell or high water.... I almost broke my neck going down stairs this evening... I don't think piling my clean clothes from one end of the stairs to another end was a smart thing to do... do you? When I told you to put them there for the time being, I meant like the next hour... not the next week..... Thank you however for sorting out all the pantyhose, stockings, and body stockings... (although I know you don't ever complain at doing tasks like this one!) I can now find them when I need them.... Hand washing them next weekend is next on the agenda... They've been in that box for a while.... I'll plan on seeing you very late Tuesday night at your place in NY to pick up Ashleigh's new computer. Make sure you have clean fresh sheets on your bed & that you have an extra blanket or two for yourself... it can get cold on the floor at night.

I would also like to thank Jim, for giving me a rubber suit this Saturday that he just bought. Jim's going through a purging stage in his life, where he's getting rid of his fetish clothing, and I was the beneficiary. (I don't believe that this is the first time either) That's nice, that you gave me the suit, but I would rather play with you in your rubber suit Jim, so if you ever feel the urge to do this again, you have my number, please feel free to call me ‑ until then, I'm sure we can make plenty of usage out of it!! Thank you!! It is appreciated greatly!!

And guys, goodness, you're swamping our mailbox ‑ (and we love it!!! It feels so nice to get these beautiful letters & cards from you) Ashleigh went over there today again after work, and called me up to tell me to come help her out & to bring a trash bag... We seriously must have got about 50 cards (belated, but still appreciated!!) and about a dozen boxed gifts....For those of you who gave us a return address for you, we'll be sending you thank you cards & a little something special in the mail ‑ much later this week!!

Well that's all for right now, I'm working on some stories etc., and more pics but you'll just have to wait a few days for them... I'm off to feed all my fish (I have four freshwater tanks, consisting of mainly Oscars, Jack Dempseys, Manganese, Jewel fish, red belly piranhas (these are by themselves), Alligator Gar, cat fish.....) and in one smaller tank (it's only 30 gallons) I have this one, huge, lonely (probably horny) goldfish... whose going to feel even more alone, when I start fishing feeder fish out of his tank to feed to the other fish. My fish eat through about 200 goldfish every two weeks ‑ although I only put about 15 at a time into each tank, and the rest house with this huge goldfish, till it's time for supper.... I'm so sadistic!!

Monday, February 17, 1997

I honestly wasn't serious about it!!! Was I?

02/17/97 ‑ Hi slaves... Happy 'President's Day' (Like that matters to me! ‑ though I guess there are sales going on.... hmmm..) Someone was very nice enough to help me out with my biohazardous material question ‑ wow that was a mouthful!! Anyhow, here's what I was told...

"I am writing you to answer your question regarding how lab specimens are transported. I have been consulting in health care for fifteen years and have helped set up many medical laboratories. One project I worked on tested the entire Army Reserves and active Navy for HIV. (I used to go to the DC area monthly when the navy {National Institute of Health} and the Army {Ft. Detrich} were my clients). I wish I knew your were in that region then, I would have LOVED to get to meet you. Anyway, most laboratories and hospitals have their own courier network of drivers who are employed or contracted to transport biohazardous waste. Whenever you want to ship blood, urine or other bodily matter, the way we always did it was via FedEx, Airborne, etc. The only trick is in the packaging and labeling. If you contact your local office they can give you the details, but the short version is it has to be double bagged to ensure that if the container broke the contents could not escape through the packaging to be exposed. Additionally, the packaging has to be sealed and labeled with the Biohazardous stickers, ...I hope this helps."

When I said US mail, I really meant RPS, or FedEx to begin with... were I come from we only have parcel post, or the mailman & for us it's kinda all the same thing anyhow.. so it probably most definitely is something that I cannot do through regular US mail...I'm sure you'll all be glad to know that I've finally found a new provider for my site, so hopefully, while it's being moved (sometime this week) I won't have any downtime, or problems.... Thanks to everyone who helped me search (you know who you are!) or give me other ideas on how to host it myself.

And, a big thanks to Jaguar, who (even though he was very late) sent me a wonderful multimedia valentines day card ~ it was great!!

Saturday, February 15, 1997

Who knew?? I was kinda joking anyway though..

02/15/97 ‑ Well what a nice lot of submissive slaves that we have.... We'd like to say thanks especially to:‑ Bill, John, David, Kevin, Jessica, Dan, Yiannakis, & Lolita for the beautiful, huge rose arrangements that got delivered to us. They were truly beautiful!! We received so many cards & chocolates & we'll all send you all individual thank you notes.. please be patient, we may be writing for weeks!! Our house, & dungeon almost looks like a funeral home there are so many vases of roses... WE LOVE IT!!! THANKS VERY MUCH!!!

Oh dear, well after coming home from the midnight movie, I just got this in my mail box tonite ‑

"Just thought I'd let you know, in case you didn't, that sending bio‑hazards through the US postal service is prohibited by federal law. This includes human feces. You might want to reconsider whether you plan to do this, based on that information. You might also want to consider whether you plan to state that you've done it in a public forum.

Otherwise, I enjoy your website and hope it continues to be such a great source of information. Just concerned that the proprietress might end up in a federal prison ;‑)"

So let me ask do they transport lab samples when you have to give a donation at the DR's office?? All very confusing stuff.... I guess one way for me to find out is to the Post Office up tomorrow and just ask them directly.... I wouldn't want to end up in jail now would I?

Anyhow, thanks guys for a wonderful Valentine's Day weekend!! We all had a blast!!

By the way ‑ I have a great session story to tell you about that happened today, with this slave called Charles... and what a blast he, Lolita, myself, & Ashleigh had!!! But you'll all have to wait till (at the very earliest) Monday

Friday, February 14, 1997

Valentines Day

02/14/97 ‑ Happy Valentines Day, and thanks to all of our clients who were kind enough to send us flowers, and cards... they were much appreciated (and probably/most definitely earned you some brownie points!!) Ashleigh said our mailbox was swamped when she went over there this afternoon!! Everyone over there she said was gawking at her!! She had armfuls of boxes etc., Poor girl!!

Nichole got some really (useful) gifts... one of her slaves sent her some SONY movie theatre tickets, (so we're all off to the movies tonite!!) And a gift certificate for TGIF's!! So she sez thanks a lot!! I got a gift certificate to Victoria Secret (I can never get enough of these!!) And also yards of some really nice velvety material, from a very special slave ‑ I need lots of this stuff, I'm redoing my dungeon in plush (maroon, dark red, and black, all the way from footstools, to curtains..) so this was much appreciated.... I guess he works in a fabric store, or a factory that manufactures curtains or something!!

Thank God, no one sent us any perfume... after Xmas we were swamped with bottles of the stuff, none of us will need perfume till the year 2000!!
Ashleigh got a really cool iron candle holder, it's really funky looking, and it's going in our dungeon!! Lady Sarah & Keri received MANY boxes of chocolate, and Sarah also got sent a gift certificate to Nordstrom's (one of her favourite places to buy shoes!) Actually talking about Nordstrom's, they have these really funky Zebra patterned high heel boots, that are totally awesome, that I saw last time I was there... I'll have to run over there and pick them out this weekend....

Surprisingly enough, none of us are doing anything for Valentines Day, except being together!! It's such a tough life being goddesses, and single at that!! Every guy we know is too scared to ask us out on a date... funny isn't it? So tonite, (thanks to Nichole's slave) we're all going to go to the late movie, after hitting TGIF's for some dinner!!

Anyhow, there won't be any more changes till at least Monday, as Saturday I am going to be swamped training a couple of new submissives, and Sunday I'll be doing sessions. So to keep you very busy till then, I've added a lot more stories, for you to drool, and fantasize over!!

Oh & also... if you come across pages where the pictures or the links don't work, do me a huge bloody favour, and e‑mail me, alrighty? I can't possibly check every page, every day, as well as maintain this site ‑ I know I'm awesome & everything, but even I have my limits of what I can do in a day...

I'm also looking for TASTE TEST subjects.... Why? Well I want to test sending 'fertilizer' (that's a good word isn't it??) through the mail... and knowing if it arrives, safely, freshly, and in tact.. maybe spread in my panties???

Thursday, February 13, 1997

Rose petals..

02/13/97 ‑. Ashleigh and I just had a really nice backrub/scrub, and foot massage from a very special client of ours, who brought over a dozen roses for each of us, and an extra dozen which he took the petals off and put in the bath tub, so that we could soak luxuriously in the bath milk, and pink petals....It was wonderful, and just what the Dr ordered.... In fact I enjoyed it so much, I think I need to have Lolita go draw me another one.... oh, and he bought me this really cute little pair of French knickers, and cami top, which has little red hearts, and bows all over it.... ‑ I'm going to climb into them, and go to bed!! They're very Valentiney!!

Wednesday, February 12, 1997

Proper Training

02/12/97 ‑ Well slaves, I've added many new stories for your enjoyment, and for those of you who are into humiliation and brown showers you MUST read "Proper Training", and "Toilet Training" What very exciting, stories to be sure.... Lolita my little maid, is going to be starting her lessons in toilet training, and I'm going to be going through exactly the same procedures with her, as outlined in these stories....And for those times that she's not around to be fed, I'll be saving it in a plastic container.... I wonder what the legalities of mailing shit through the US postal service are?? Perhaps when she's working in NYC throughout the week, I can mail my plastic containers to her... (Joking... I know it's a biochemical hazard)..

Monday, February 10, 1997

My undies..

02/10/97 ‑ Here we are again slaves.... it's 3.49am in the morning, and what am I doing?? Finishing this up, then getting ready to go to the gym that's what!

I was totally swamped with letters asking about stocking & teddy pics, and peeks at my undies... (Naughty, naughty, boys!!) Well, I decided to gather a couple of my girlfriends together, and we all put together some more shots of stocking clad legs, and of course my cutesy panties!! You can check them all out here as long as you promise to cum at least once from looking at them!! And you can even buy them, by checking this page out!! (Please note guys, that my friends will gladly sit in, and participate in a session, but they WILL NOT do a session by themselves & they're primarily into humiliation types of scenes, or perhaps slave auction scenes.....)
Because female domination is so great, I've added to the body worshiping page, and it will be updated regularly with new & old, tried and tested methods, for disciplining slaves. There's also some cool new pics on it! E‑mail training & Postal training will begin very soon.... I'm just putting together sample packages right now, and designing some stuff on my computer that each of you will get. Be patient, and check back here often to find out how to go about it.

Valentines Day is fast approaching, and I'm hoping that we're all going to receive some really nice love letters, or poems, in our e‑mail boxes!! For those of you who are really romantic, we won't say no to flowers!!

Sunday, February 09, 1997

Thones, Rings & pics

02/09/97 ‑ Well guys, I'm finally feeling a tad better, I received many tooth remedies from slaves, and friends, and have used them all... seems combined they work at least some, so that I'm not in excruciating pain.... Oh well I've only got to wait till Tuesday. :‑(

This weekend's been a total flop! (For me at least!!) Sarah, and Nichole both had really nice times it seems with some new clients this weekend, but poor, little old me, didn't do any of the hot, and kinky things that I wanted to.

All of us here, are alarmingly surprised at how well the page is coming along and shaping up, however feed‑back from all of you submissive sissy's is ALWAYS a big help. If there's something that you'd like to see more of, or something that isn't already here, please let us know.... e‑mail me and tell me all about it. If you haven't figured it out by now, you should know that I'm kinda open to anything & pretty unshockable!!

I've also been kicking around the idea of having a discussion board, where we can talk about whatever (as long as it's related to this web site's content). It would ‑ I guess ‑ be almost like the Usenet groups ( except without all the spam and crap that you have to weed through..... If you like this idea, or hate this idea, please tell me!!

I haven't forgotten, or stopped working on the video section ‑ I'll be able to do this somewhat if everyone knows how to download mpegs, aiff's, etc., and how to use their Netscape plugins, or has a video player of some sort already installed in their computer. It's not as daunting as it sounds. You'll also have to have PKZIP installed in order to be able to open the downloaded zip files. I also cannot do it till I change to another host provider, as this one will go absolutely nucking futs!!

This afternoon (Sunday) Lolita drove me to Ellicott City (For those of you who don't know the area, it's a little historical town, with lots of antique stores, witch‑craft stores, herbal stores and jewelry stores). I just love it down here... I found THE perfect THRONE in one of these stores. It's made of Oak, and was huge! Decorated with some nice pillows, it would look very good in my dungeon. However I didn't have the $500 to buy it :‑( what a bargain 'eh??? SO, hopefully after I get done paying bills this month It'll still be there! What did I get?? Well I got two really nice rings ‑ one is a garnet ‑ my favourite stone, but not my birth stone, and the other was a Russian wedding ring! Very cool!! I also got some cool candle sticks for the dungeon, and some really nice smelling, incense & oils.

Sarah, and Nichole, have both promised me that they'll get me some more stuff together for their pages this week, so do keep checking that out.... and because I've been inundated with foot picture requests, you can be sure that I'll try to scan some more of those in by the end of the week. If you'd like to see something in particular, drop us a line, and let us know!

Well I'm going to go wake Ashleigh up, and try to coerce her into coming to the gym with me... Hope you've enjoyed the new updates!!!

Saturday, February 08, 1997


02/08/97 ‑ Ok, well I spent a really nice evening at the HOSPITAL! I'm really not feeling too hot... It's starting to seem that I have 'toothache' really badly, (and not Migraine stress) so after being up again last night, (and every night since last Saturday night) I'm going to go try to find an oral surgeon who can see me today.... Unfortunately for me, Novocaine doesn't work (I guess I'm immune to it or something) so I have to get put to sleep for them to be able to remove (yikes) or fix the infected tooth. I never had any idea, that one tiny tooth could cause a person sooooo much pain. I've been in complete agony. Needless to say, I didn't get to see a movie last night, as I spent most of the evening in the emergency room of Suburban Hospital.... Although after waiting 2 ½ hours, I decided I was going home... It's well saying I wasn't dying or anything!! They are really slow at seeing patients, and I guess even though I was in EXTREME pain, my toothache didn't rank high on their list of priorities.... Nor did the fact that I'd been kinda O.D'ing on pain medication.... (Especially when they have people sitting there holding there eyes into their heads!!) I'd had about 24 Fiortal with codeine since yesterday (Friday) at 4pm.... Not good.... So I'm feeling really queasy today.... Hopefully I can find a dentist who can see me today, as I desperately want to be able to just lay down and close my eyes, without the intense pain!

Anyhow, saying as how I was up again last night (and for someone who hadn't drank in months ‑ I had about 5 shots of Whiskey, (to ease the pain) which did no use, nor put me to sleep!) so I was able to finish off some more pages, in between cursing & (yes I do it occasionally) crying... ‑ or rather screaming & sobbing!! So here it is, 7am in the morning, and Nichole, Lolita and Sarah, (who stayed with me last night to keep me company) are all fast asleep dreaming of kinky things no doubt! It's just not fair, as I haven't been able to sleep since last Saturday evening!!!

Friday, February 07, 1997

Foot slave

02/07/97 ‑ Thank God it's Friday!! A few of my girlfriends and I are taking off early tonight, to go see a movie.. It's a toss between Evita, and Fran Drescher's The Beautician & The Beast !!! (OH BOY!!) ;>) In an hour or so I'm off to get my nails painted, and a pedicure done... I think I'm going to stick with good old fire engine red this week. Once a month she does this really cool treatment on my feet, I think it's with paraffin..... any how, it makes your feet silky smooth, just like a baby's arse!

Yesterday I went to my Dr.'s as I've not been feeling so hot this week, I have been having massive migraine headaches... so I won't personally be taking any appts this weekend... I think I'm just going to chill out, and be pampered by my sissy maid Lolita. (who gets down from NY tonight and stays the whole weekend at my house ‑ she of course sleeps in a large cage, or sometimes if she's good, and has pleased me, and I feel like having some company, I make her lay at the bottom of my four poster bed, and I restrain her legs to one post, and her hands to the others, with some panty hose. I love teasing the hell out of her, by making her wear a pair of my thigh high stockings from Victoria Secret, and a pair of my panties, and I sleep nude except for my thigh high stockings, which I have on only because I love rubbing my stocking clad feet over her body, as I sleep!!)

Lolita totally takes care of my every little need! My girlfriends just love it when I bring Lolita along on our outings to the mall or the movies etc., they get to take total advantage of her!! They tease the hell out of her by taking her into Frederick's of Hollywood, and Victoria Secret, and every shoe shop we can find, 'cause she's such the little toe sucker!

When we go to the movies, Lolita buys the tickets, and 5 sodas, and a huge bucket of popcorn (and we expect her to carry it all, so she normally has to make at least two trips to the concession stand, while we're sitting down relaxing, watching the trailers!!) She sits in the middle holding the popcorn, which she gets 5 little drinking cups along with it, and these she fills with popcorn for us throughout the entire movie.... and we just sit there munching, telling her to pass us a soda... get us a napkin.... we love it!!

In the mall, in a shoe store, we make her get down on her knees, and take off our shoes, put the little stocking on our feet, and then we have her try on us about 10 pairs of shoes each!! Then we model them, all the while putting them in her face, asking if she likes them, or if she thinks they're sexy.... (all the while, we know she's as hard as a rock, and just dying to make love to them!!) If we like any, she of course has to buy them for us!

In Victoria Secret, or Frederick's, we pick out stuff, and she carries it, following us around like a little puppy dog, all the while we're totally humiliating her, by telling her what she's going to be trying on, or what we're buying specifically for her to model for us!! Or we'll pick up really nice silky, or satin teddies, which we'll rub against her face, asking her if she likes the feel of them! In the changing room, we use her as our coat‑rack for our clothes, as we try on bras, and body stockings etc., then rubbing ourselves against her asking her if she likes what she sees.... She's dying to cum at this point!! It's sooo funny!!

She of course gets to carry all of our packages around the mall as we do our rounds... In the coffee shops, she takes our orders, and goes and gets us it, as we rest our weary feet, after such a hard day of shopping!! It's brilliant... She is such a good little maid to me, and my girlfriends!!

So tonight, I'm going to go do that, and tomorrow, Sarah, Nichole & Ashleigh have appts scheduled, so I'll chill out over at the dungeon, and work on my site for a few hours... then go shopping, and do lunch with my friends & Ashleigh. Sarah, Nichole, and Ashleigh have been dying to go out and party at a club, so I think I'll go shop for another little black dress tomorrow, and tomorrow night, we'll go paint the town red, with Lolita as our chauffeur.

Thursday, February 06, 1997


02/06/97 ‑ Well....last weekend didn't go exactly as planned... for a few different reasons... However the stuff I needed to do in my dungeon will get done this upcoming weekend, and (probably the following weekend also) and again anyone who can help would be much appreciated! I have so much on my mind right now, that I almost can't think straight... not that I ever do... ;>) however the most important things that we need ‑ are some‑body who is good with their hands, and can re‑attach equipment to walls ‑ if you've no clue on how to use a hammer, or screwdriver, don't offer me or Nichole your will get hurt.

So what have I been up to this weekend?? Well Nichole and I had a delicious afternoon on Saturday with some lovely new slaves, and I had a rather intense, and awfully sensuous session with Lolita, my little foot sucking, sissy maid!!

Then on Saturday night, my hot new girlfriend and I watched The Lifestyles Convention on HBO Hot stuff!! Definitely got us both hot and bothered!!

I also read a good book ‑ 'The Ten Commandments of Pleasure', and I'd suggest if you want to know how to properly please a woman to pick it up and study it carefully!! It gives us 10 commandments for men, and ten for women and is a great book on how to have 'great' sex!!

I picked up another book ‑ 'Footsucker' by Geoff Nicholson, that the Washington Post did a great review of a few weeks back... it's as the name suggests about a foot fetishist, and looks pretty promising.... I'll give you a proper review when I'm done!! It's my new reading material for the treadmill!!

My on‑going project is, I still need a new service provider to host my site ASAP, otherwise it will be coming down by the end of next week, if not sooner... this is very depressing to me, and I'm sure to the 20,000 plus people who come here on a daily basis... So if you can find a provider who will host an adult site, for less than my right arm, then I'd love to know or meet them...